NovemberRose

"John and the Pharisees" James Tissot  I may attend church and even outwardly look like a good Christian person but that does not mean it does me any good if it does not penetrate into my soul and change me on the inside. If I say I am sorry but I keep doing the thing I say I am sorry for it makes no difference. I must say I am sorry and then stop and turn around and head the opposite direction from that sin. God sees the real distorted and ugly me that lies beneath the mask I wear for others. Right now we are all mixed up in the church. Real Christians with fake Christians. But in the end God will separate us and the real Christians will be brought to heaven while the fake Christians will burn forever. Heavenly Father, Holy holy holy is the Lord God Almighty who was and is and is to come. With all creation I sing praise to the King of Kings. You are my everything and I will adore you. I confess I am not the perfect innocent girl so many think I am. Underneath t

Preston is so depressed and angry and stressed out and exhausted. I can help by maybe talking to Angie/Craig about backing off some at work and explaining what is happening with us at home? Also I have got to step up and help more. I need to keep the house clean so he doesn't have to do so much and be stressed about that along with everything else. I also need to really focus on working with the boys...both on keeping them busy and on behavior management. I need to focus on loving on him and on building relationships to strengthen our family bond with each other. I need to pray and do devotions and Bible reading with the boys so he can hear it too as well as staying calm myself and trusting in God for everything. He could have daddy son dates where he just spends time one on one with the boys as well as the two of us spending time alone. I need to really start focusing on self-care and sleep and eating and exercising. I cannot change the past but I can learn to confront and heal